On Returning To Work

More than three months have passed and suddenly, somehow, I find myself in the middle of my last day of maternity leave. My feelings and thoughts are mixed to say the least. On the one hand, being at home with the baby 24/7 has been extremely challenging, especially on days when sleep has been at a minimum and baby crankiness has been at a maximum. I have been more exhausted mentally and physically than I could have thought possible.

But then, many days at home have been pure bliss and I have truly enjoyed every single moment of spending time with this baby, even the extremely trying times. I have been able to see every new smile, roll and grab. I can't believe how much I adore this kid.

Truly I don't want to be a stay at home mom, even though it makes me feel bad/ guilty to say so. It's just the truth, not everyone is cut out for it. I would ideally love to work part time but that is not possible right now. I do have the best of all possible situations, which is that I have a fabulous nanny less than two miles from work and I get off at 4pm when lots of people get to spend minimal evening time with their kids before they go to bed. Also I need the paycheck. It's soooo hard though to think of not seeing his little face all day long and trusting someone else to take care of his needs. It is also completely overwhelming to try to remember everything he and I need to take with us every day. Pump, pumping kit, milk, clothes, bottles, blankets, etc etc etc. I know it will get easier and we will get into a routine quickly. I just have to get the first week under my belt.

I know this entry is about as scattered as my thoughts and feelings are lately. That's the way it is right now.

Hello World!

Hello World is a clothing company that I found through another website that I read religiously- www.dooce.com. They only make one product, which is a sleeper in blue for boys and pink for girls.

www.helloworldclothing.com

This is the best sleeper that I have come across, and I have tried many. It fits my long slim son just perfectly without bunching up in his face. The fabric is nice and soft. Their claim to fame is that the sleeper opens from the bottom as well as the top, which is super convenient. It's a company started by a mom, which I love, and they give a ton to charity in Kenya. Finally, the customer service is stellar.

Those are all the positives. The negative is that the sleeper is very expensive, almost $40 when you factor in shipping. I guess since they give so much to charity the price is somewhat understandable, but even so it's pretty steep for people who have tons of other baby (and life) expenses.